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I'm shocked. I leave, and move in with my mother. Then somehow I'm with my father. He's still married to V. and my stepbrothers are still there. The house is incredibly fucked up and run down. I'm in the bathroom trying to fix the shower so I can bathe when I hear the cats screaming. I go in to the laundry room and see Pearl cut open and Kali stuffed inside her. They're both dead. CMK tells me that my uncle CK did it. I'm furious, I scream at everyone and I leave.

I can't get on a plane with the other two cats so I decide to drive back to Colorado. I guess my car breaks down or something because I'm walking through a desert that looks sort of like a child's drawing of a desert, and there are lots of flowers everywhere but they don't look real.

I come to a little town, there are restaurants and a river runs down the main street and to one side is a massive mountain made of socks. There are some strange looking sleeping beasts on it, too. Sort of rhino-triceratops creatures. Something happens to wake them up and they run around thunderously and eat people. Trying to get away from them, I dive in to the socks and try to hide, but I can't get myself in very far and I know my legs are sticking out and one of the creatures is going to eat me.]]> http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=441 http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=441 May 9, 2007
and I had to go around a big street fair kind of thin

I ended up running through it and everyone was sort of menacing... eating, and everything people were eating was rotten and black or dripping blood

and I got through the fair and had to cross this big muddy road and in the middle the puddle was up to my knees

so I get through that and then I'm running in this park and there are boats... it's like an inlet on a lake and all these rich people have their boats parked on little docks

and I pass this woman walking a huge dog that looks sort of like a wolf. It's comes up to my waist and has huge teeth

and as I pass, it wrenches away from her and she drops the leash and then I'm just running away from this dog for fucking ever. I pass all of this roadkill. It almost seems as though people dumped their dead pets along this path. There is a rotting dog on the path every five or six feet

it finally catches me and I fall and i kick it in the face and drag myself up and run away

and then I'm sitting at the edge of the park with loretta and Adam's mother picking violets and I sit there between the two of them and it's uncomfortable and they talk to each other like I'm not there

I pull the violets out of the ground carefully, getting the whole stem

Adam's mother just tears the heads off the flowers, and when I point this out she just stares at me

Loretta isn't doing anything at all but just watching.]]> http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=440 http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=440 Feb 3, 2007
BG finds an old green notebook full of my dreams and sets ist aside to read later.

I'm off in some other part of the house making a terrible salty alfredo sauce. It's my real kitchen, then, and my dad is there. He leaves the top half of the window open. Worried about the cats, I close it but it falls out of the frame and crashes to the ground five floors below.

I go find BG and he's wearing a black suit with a purple button-down shirt and a big silver cross. We're in a room full of his family and friends. He reaches under my shirt and grabs my breast and I slap him across the face. His family sort of gasps then chuckles. I leave the room.

I'm laying on a waterbed looking at an ad for a trip to cross the Bering Strait with Mark Ryden and there's a picture of clear blue water filled with dark red jellyfish that look like clouds of blood blooming under water. I want to go but I see that the airport is the same one that AB and I flew into when we went to the UK.

A realtor shows up and enters without knocking, startling me. She has with her a cute French girl and they go into the living room and get comfortable watching television, like they belong there. I've begun to think the house is haunted.]]> http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=439 http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=439 Feb 1, 2007
and then I'm sitting in a room full of artists and my mom and J and this older man has a little wolverine that he plans to paint and he rips out all of its teeth but just a few in front with a thick metal wire and I write some things down because I plan to report him to animal cruelty. I get up and leave at some point and I'm outside near the entrance to the subway and this girl is smoking a cigarette and I recognize her as the proprietor of the weird shop where J has his studio and she asks 'What do you think of this area?' and I reply 'I'd love to live down here.' There are two or three stray cats sitting in a little alcove across the sidewalk from us and I decide to go try to pet one and this black one grabs on to my hand and arm with all of its teeth and claws and i'm swinging it around trying to get it off and I can feel its claws sinking in to my arm. I have to spin around and shake it and shake it to get it to finally let go.

Then I'm back in what i guess is my apartment and it is this tiny one room with all this yellow wallpaper streaked with water stains and what was once a beautiful stained glass skylight that is all boarded up. J and some other guy are with me, not A, and I don't even want him there and I hate my apartment and I look at the bed and then i wake up coughing, it hurts because I bruised my diaphragm throwing up and I check for him next to me and he's not there and then I remember everything and]]> http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=438 http://dreamcollective.net/dream_display.php?did=438 Dec 31, 2006